Monday, December 22, 2008

End of the year


I finished another quarter towards my Masters Degree in Education a few weeks ago. The class invigorated my heart and mind as I realized the huge goliath of social injustices that plague our soceity, even our schools. I think my Dad would call me a mush-head. I know I am thinking critically and want to continue living in a conscious state of mind, not ruled by habit or comfortability. It's the struggle.
I made a goal to connect emotionally with a man of interest because I want to marry an amazing man with integrity, heart, style, personality, height, and faith. I am becoming a butterfly, waiting to take flight in freedom to live my life now. No living on the sidelines or watching other people live their life on reality t.v. I have a lot to do while I'm here.

I have so many wonderful parts to my life - family, friends, nature, my doggy, my car, a job, reasonable health, great roommates. Even still, my heart aches for my life partner....the man I can share a sunset with or make funny noises with. I think I am weary, not of waiting or anything like that...just in general. Running a business stretches me like I was silly-puddy. I am working harder than I ever thought possible. I recently learned that the person I fear committing to the most is me. God has presented me with many wonderful opportunities for growth in life, in thought, in love, in understanding. I get to be around children that love me - which always blows me away and fills my heart at the same time. I get to run a company when I studied to teach. I have been trusted with much. I have a mom that adores me and supports me and we have a working relationship today. I have a brother who gives me a hard time, but also loves me. He's actually really cool. I have roommates, one of which I am adopting because she is the little sister I don't have - but I do now! I live in an amazing apartment with wonderful landlords. I have friendships that go deeper than what is visible to the naked eye. I have so much support and love around me - nothing I deserve. So I am thankful. Thank you everyone for loving and supporting me and believing in me and helping me be the best me today. Merry Christmas and best wishes for the New Year!